Unaware of the time, still wondering if she will ever be mine.

I haven't been blogging. I know I've been saying that in almost every posts I made before. Main reason is no time. So yeah... I'll do a quick on here. It's 5 plus. It's late. Every night before I go to sleep, I'll always have questions. About? About her... It sucks. It kills me every night. Dying to know. Dying to know if a tiny mini bit of her still have feelings for me somehow. I must be delusional. But no. If she ever said that I was, then she's absolutely wrong. Because I'm just fighting for something that means everything to me. She really does mean a lot to me. I really have to fight all that I've got as long as I feel it's worth it. I know it is. Even some of my friends are against it. Yeah... I'm stubborn. I haven't told her that I love her yet. Worse... I haven't told her that I like her. She knows that I do but not love her. I I guess I'll never know unless I did something. But not now...